Sunday, August 02, 2009

16km last friday proved something to me. or least 16km followed by ndp rehearsal the following day did. legs felt abit wobbly wearing the suit during 1st rehearsal but finished it and came back feeling just fine. not too bad leh i think! :) just one not too long year ago 16km would have left me bed ridden for the whole day haha :P

looking back its not really been easy. all along i was never a long distance runner. like NEVER. 400/800m was fine, 2.4 really challenging and anything beyond was torturous. even in sispec the 6km run at the end was like a crowning achievement like WOWWWW i actually can complete 6km o.O and during last year's ahm running 10km gave me new insights to the word shagness haha.

so when i signed up for sundown on impulse it was abit crazy now that i think about it haha. had like 2-3 months to coax my body into believing i can finish 42km even though for the past 19 years i've never run more than a quarter of that! :) wowz hahaa. meant it as a challenge personally and it turned out to be so much more. actually quite proud to have completed it. its easy for ppl to say aiya long legs what meant for running, but its not that simple i think. have long learnt to ignore that coz i find that most ppl who say that arent complaining about you. they're just looking for excuses for themselves. even if there's someone else with shorter legs and runs faster it'll be because that guy is "just crazy la" and "he's just a natural runner whatt". and it'll always be because "im just too tired" and "im just not a natural runner" and "there's no point what why you so extra" and stuff like that. no one ever admits its because "im too lazy" and "i lack willpower to put in more effort" and "i din want to try harder".
and i know because i used to be just like that haha :p just that i din have much excuses to hide behind coz i did have better body build for running ><

even now when i run long distances there's still this tiny voice in my brain that says "relax lets walk abit i cant take it already lets rest just a little while". and theres this other voice that says "NO lets not lets just continue". seriously its still not easy even now after so much training, but hey the first voice gets softer and softer the more i run. everyone fights this same battle i think. even henry and he's by very very far the best runner i know of. and still he tells me he has to push himself hard just to go for training runs. its a personal battle of willpower each time and winning it gives so much confidence and satisfaction. never thought i could do this before. and its not just about running also. its about everything else at the same time.
how a person go about his runs sometimes can tell you much about how a person's attitude is. thats what vincent always said and its actually quite true lol :)

signed up for stand chart and probably hopefully gonna run north face 100 with anrikyo. came quite a long way from last year already :)

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