Sunday, August 30, 2009

first rwinds prac. feelt just like last year. the demoralising feeling where i seemed to have totally lost the feeling of playing a clarinet >< nothing to do with fingering or lack of breath. its just... that FEELING. not there anymore >< takes a few more pracs to get it back like last year hopefully :)

productive duty today :) watched disaster movie (terrible really. the only thing fun was trying to identify which movies were being made fun of haha), the reader (not bad. bit heavy though) and strictly sexual. strictly sexual is quite nice in the sense that it feels really like a real situation that can happen. no happy endings of the movie sorts.. just a "life goes on" sort of sombre reality. things in life arent always perfect but as things and events happen we should still try to live and cherish them even if it doesnt work out eventually. ppl should watch such movies occasionally. but occasionally would do, since movies should still be for entertainment and a generally nice way to spend 2 hours :)

yeah and finished reading The Void by frank close. frankly (hehe) din really understand most parts of the book its a little too abstract :p far too cheeem! but the more i read the more i understand why science and philosophy is so intertwined with each other.
but i think i kinda got a solution to my conservation of energy problem! ^^ must still go ponder a bit more over it though.

11:32 PM

Sunday, August 23, 2009

hilarious. was reading some wu xia xiao shuo when boey walked in and went 'omg is that a chinese dictionary'

6:40 PM

so very confused by theory of relativity!
but one thing's for sure. whatever they taught us at school might just be totally wrong lol. and even if its right, its just a minusculely micro-tiny little tip of a fabulously gigantic iceberg ><

11:01 AM

Saturday, August 22, 2009

went for soccer today. first time since way before ndp. sizzling hot weather though hopefully wont peel tmr haha. yeah and ponned rwinds prac. next week i shall try to make it for my first prac :)

finished reading einstein's cosmos on the train back! very good read though i din really understand a few parts of it. tmr shall re-read it during duty :)

9:52 PM

Friday, August 21, 2009

currently reading Einstein's Cosmos by Michio Kaku! totally fascinating book ^^

havent finished reading it, but already awed.

9:22 PM

Friday, August 14, 2009

watched G.I JOE finally. its quite a boring, more like one really long demonstration of impressive special effects animation. which to be honest i'd say is worth the ticket price already lols so no complains :)

seriously its getting very hard to make such movie epic action movies nowadays. everything has already been done and the audience has already seen every possible (and impossible) plot which leaves the director with the CGI to play with... which again doesnt leave much since star wars/star trek/iron man/transfomers/terminator/matrix and the mother huge gang of sci-fi movies has pretty much used up everything known already. lolz

8:51 PM

Saturday, August 08, 2009

must learn photoshop! ^^

and must learn to live life more disciplinedly haha. gotta stop nua-ing my life away sia.

was reading cna. there's this news about how south korea is painting some carpark lots pink- solely meant for women. its part of their plan to make the country more high-heel friendly. like lols! so from now women dont have to walk so far to get to their offices.... or to that new shopping centre =p so cute.

think its meant to be part of an effort to create some sort of fairness between the sexes and to encourage women into the work force.... but the very act of making it unfair towards women seem to emphasise the sad fact that women are really holding secondary status to men in their society. epic backfireness!

8:59 PM

Monday, August 03, 2009

saw some news about how a japanese company made some wonder bodysuit which detects your brain signals and minute body movement to help with walking and general movement. so basically walking becomes literally effortless and the person wearing the suit is immensely strong. awesome! :)

the japs are full of innovations lol :p love how they always manage to come up with crazy but actually workable ideas that leave the rest of the world in awe.
but the point is, if some commercial company can come up with such a suit good enough to be sold to the public, what can a military research department backed by a military research budget come up with?? G.I. Joe not that unrealistic maybe :p

11:14 PM

Sunday, August 02, 2009

had an epiphany last night after reaching home from ndp preview. seet just got sent to hospital coz he dislocated his shoulder during preview. so while i was in camp i decided maybe i'll sms sj to let him know about it so he can prepare himself in case he's required to replace seet. and funnily enough the first reply i got was something along the lines of "ahhhh why! why seet always like that one!".
then when i reached home i told jason over fb. and his first reply was "wah good job now he has even more excuses to chao keng out of doing work already"

and BAM suddenly i knew what was bothering me since camp. i was feeling bad not because of the incident. i was feeling bad because im SUPPOSED to feel concerned about him getting injured, but i wasnt feeling anything then. hmm. i was feeling bad because my first reaction was similar to how those 2 were feeling also.

feeling bad because i wasnt feeling bad about it lol. maybe i should have understood how i was feeling earlier than this but was probably too caught up with the preview being screwed up so wasnt thinking very well.

such events bring up how your usual relationships with others are huh.

12:19 PM

16km last friday proved something to me. or least 16km followed by ndp rehearsal the following day did. legs felt abit wobbly wearing the suit during 1st rehearsal but finished it and came back feeling just fine. not too bad leh i think! :) just one not too long year ago 16km would have left me bed ridden for the whole day haha :P

looking back its not really been easy. all along i was never a long distance runner. like NEVER. 400/800m was fine, 2.4 really challenging and anything beyond was torturous. even in sispec the 6km run at the end was like a crowning achievement like WOWWWW i actually can complete 6km o.O and during last year's ahm running 10km gave me new insights to the word shagness haha.

so when i signed up for sundown on impulse it was abit crazy now that i think about it haha. had like 2-3 months to coax my body into believing i can finish 42km even though for the past 19 years i've never run more than a quarter of that! :) wowz hahaa. meant it as a challenge personally and it turned out to be so much more. actually quite proud to have completed it. its easy for ppl to say aiya long legs what meant for running, but its not that simple i think. have long learnt to ignore that coz i find that most ppl who say that arent complaining about you. they're just looking for excuses for themselves. even if there's someone else with shorter legs and runs faster it'll be because that guy is "just crazy la" and "he's just a natural runner whatt". and it'll always be because "im just too tired" and "im just not a natural runner" and "there's no point what why you so extra" and stuff like that. no one ever admits its because "im too lazy" and "i lack willpower to put in more effort" and "i din want to try harder".
and i know because i used to be just like that haha :p just that i din have much excuses to hide behind coz i did have better body build for running ><

even now when i run long distances there's still this tiny voice in my brain that says "relax lets walk abit i cant take it already lets rest just a little while". and theres this other voice that says "NO lets not lets just continue". seriously its still not easy even now after so much training, but hey the first voice gets softer and softer the more i run. everyone fights this same battle i think. even henry and he's by very very far the best runner i know of. and still he tells me he has to push himself hard just to go for training runs. its a personal battle of willpower each time and winning it gives so much confidence and satisfaction. never thought i could do this before. and its not just about running also. its about everything else at the same time.
how a person go about his runs sometimes can tell you much about how a person's attitude is. thats what vincent always said and its actually quite true lol :)

signed up for stand chart and probably hopefully gonna run north face 100 with anrikyo. came quite a long way from last year already :)

11:40 AM

august. i gotta stop this habit of blogging only once a month. not much probably happened since, and every saturday burnt at ndp rehearsals i guess. and a few more runs leading up to ahm. 2 more weeks!~

timor barat run was quite enjoyable my first ever 16km run. overall team placing of third and indiv 107th out of engineer formation and invited runners. quite ok i think. and third prize was a pair of socks each. yup socks. economy not doing well im afraid :p but ok to be fair it was a comfortable pair of socks haha. and after the run was some really unexpected show/talk/rubbish filled with extremely not funny sexual innuendos from some condom company about safe sex. like who the hell was in the mood after 16km. left about 2 minutes later nto go shop at the stores they set up. and FINALLY bought my first pair of running shoes ^^ and won a mouse pad also after playing some game with the BSM :)

oh and the shoe seller was quite nice he personally delivered the shoes i ordered all the way to changi chalet the following week cause we had our unit cohesion and i wasnt in camp. like wow impressive customer service :) oh ya and impressive chalet! scenic sea view.. or at least as scenic and sea views in singapore do get. can also see tekong holiday resort. seriously from far is REALLY looked like a nice resort ><

one more 16km out camp on friday. good route at pasir ris park i liked it :) and managed to finish in front of bsm phew (seriously at a mwo's age, 16km in 1:20++hrs is AWESOME. respect sia) and nicholas is still insanely fast haha. damns haha. after that wobbled to pasir ris mrt to take train home, and still had preview yesterday. sweet haha.

yesterday preview so some ppl required to go set up shop/recce the ground from our unit. jason claims the million dollar view is worth the thousand dollars paid haha. damns must find some way to visit :) and the exercise... ok shant comment i wasnt involved. but 1sg gu seems to have lots of comments about dua pao and similar stuff hahahaha

anyway preview was one effing major screw up. like almost on epic scale sigh. yeah and seet got sent to hospital after dislocating his shoulder from getting out the bus during the show. like how he did it i have no idea. time to change bus maybe *noddnodd* at least to one which the sliding door can be opened easily from the inside ARGHZZZZZ.

11:01 AM

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